This is the first post I have written since November 11th. Even then, I realize they have become sporatic. There is a reason for that.
I have used this blog as a medium to write, to network, to find my way through to my own story, to vent, to write a book, to......
Now, I realize the reasoning that has caused a writer's block for me. I have blocked myself in. In my mind, I have decided I can only write a certain way because I have followers who may not be able to deal with, handle well, what I have to say.
My ministry has branched into a new phase. It is an interesting journey. As I braille d my way through my own stories of abuse, my style of speaking changed, the person in the mirror changed, and something happened. I bloomed.
I am a bit more outspoken.
I am less likely to care what someone thinks of me.
I am more capable of being a warrior without regard to who the villain is.
I have found the person who has lived inside for a very long time.
Yes, I posted that I had found my voice.
You should hear it.
There is forgiveness where forgiveness is needed.
There is mercy where mercy is needed.
There is love where love is needed.
And there is a great big BOOM for the person who dares try and take away what doesn't belong to them.
What has it done for my Pastoral Career of Ministry?
I have been invited to churches where I wasn't welcomed a year ago.
I am stepping WAY OUTSIDE MY COMFORT ZONE.
So what am I doing now?
I am Stepping Out!
I am the voice of one.
I am only one.
And I am hear to bring justice to a place where children should be treated with respect, where abuse is NOT tolerated, where bullying (whether by a minister or a playground bully) has no rights to the self - esteem of others.
I am getting ready to launch the website of this new phase in my life.
Some people will walk away.
Some people will baulk this.
Some people will have to deal with fear and try to shut me down.
I will not shut down.
I am here to make a positive difference.
I have come home to my heart!
This is my calling.
More to come later!
9 comments:
Good for you and good on you!
I will still be following.
smiles...still hanging around in the corner...and great to see you PS
Wow, this is great! So glad you have been finding new life in yourself.
Keep being you. The world needs you (the you you really are). Keep exploring possibilities. Live a bit outside your comfort zone, at least in part.
Blessings and Bear hugs.
I am glad to see you posting again. I had hoped your absence was due to positive changes, and look forward to meeting the new and improved version of you.
I just recently began to post again also but I chose to do it on a new blog with a new name. However, you may still recognize my email address from past exchanges.
You go girl!!! I'm soooo excited for you and your ministry!
I've felt kinda bad 'cause my last comment pretty much told ya to pick up your bed and walk, so to speak. I'm sorry...I sure didn't know your circumstances or what you were facin'.
Good luck on your new adventure, I'm sure it's gonna be great 'cause God is with ya.
God bless and have a magnificent week sweetie!!!
I will be waiting! Go you! Follow where He leads!
Sounds exciting :) Nice to see you again!
I have always loved what you have to say and to be perfectly honest, don't see that changing in any way. I love the message you are trying to impart, and I'm ready to listen. Good luck with it, keep it real and don't back down. I'd rather people like and respect me for who I am than who they want me to be.
love
Sandi
Still here! Good to see you here too!
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